Tao, the Beam of Light in My Life
A patient’s journey to fight against depression
◎LL (Love Life)
During my life, everyone looks at me as a bright person who works hard, studies hard, and stays kind. However, from the angle where people cannot see, I have a painful secret that I thought I would never share with anyone. I work as a nurse, but at the same time, I am a patient who has been suffering from severe depression for many years. By thinking about those signs, I probably have already started depression since high school, but it took me so long to admit and accept the fact. Recall those moments when I couldn’t get up from bed for several days, the moments when I had hallucinations and lost sense of colors, the moments when I locked myself inside not talking to anyone; I see all full of struggles and darkness. During those years, I was completely lost and not seeing any light around me. By March of the year 2021, when I started writing a will prior to my suicidal plan, I finally realized that I needed help and finally started therapy.